WordStream Blog #3: Thinking of Nanay

 


This is my "Nanay", Lola Nimfa, from our father's side. She was gone in year 2021. Time flies so fast that we never noticed she's not with us for almost 4 years already.

I miss her angry yells every morning shouting, "Magsibangon na nga kayo riyan, para kayong mga anak mayaman ah!" 

Before, at 7am we are woken up from bed. When she's gone, I am waking up at 10am or so. 

Our Lola doesn't want some hugs from her 'gurang na apo'. She was like, "Ano ba!" with her angry tone, which makes me giggle. I love teasing her even when I feel sleepy. 

Sometimes, she doesn't want any help when she's washing her clothes. But as I watch her, I kept asking her to even help her rinse them with water. Still, she refuses. What I do is wait for her til she can't even hold the steel handle of the 'poso'. I tell her, "Nay, tulungan na kita d'yan magbomba ng tubig." Well, what do you think, she's tired already and can't refuse my offer. 

Our Nanay died on November 1, 2021. I didn't posted her during Mothers' Day. But I will never forget to offer some food and prayers to her. I always greet her "Happy Mothers' Day" on my mind, where only God and she will hear. 

The thought that I will never have the opportunity to bring her to fancy restaurants or even to parks where we can take a jog, really breaks my heart. 

I miss her. I miss her so much that I refused to be with her when she asked me in my dreams to come with her. I told her that I can't because my family (Papa and Beka) still needs me. I have dreams to work on. I will make your dream mansion and dream van come true, Nanay. 🩵🥹


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